Addicted to staying alive?

Most of the time when i think about myself, I ask myself why I did somethings or still do somethings. It finally dawned to me, everyone has their ups and downs. Everyone has a different way of dealing with both of those. Addictions, drama, you name it, but why? you know!? so i came to a conclusion that when we feel low we want some sought of rush, some kind of feeling that reels your nerves from head to toe. this is just so to feel alive again. To feel lost in an emotion and avoid the reality that is bitter or sometimes too good to be true!